I should have been happy. I knew it. I could have listed out so many things for which I was thankful.
So, what was this undercurrent of disappointment that ebbed and flowed just beneath the surface of my more honest moments? I got still and I got sad.
Then I would see something horrific on the news that other people are facing, and I felt so horribly guilty for even daring to give myself permission to entertain anything other than gratitude.
Which just heaped shame on top of my sadness. So I’d reach for a handful of something chocolate. And I’d wash it down with a Diet Coke and determine that maybe all this off-kilterness was just because I was running a little low on sugar and caffeine.
But the real answer was something I already knew but didn’t want to admit.
I was doing many things, pouring myself out for God, but not really spending time getting refilled by God.
Maybe you can relate?
I’m sharing more about this over at (in)courage today and I’d love to have you join in on the conversation. Just click here!
This just spoke to me in so many ways!
I love how your post just come to me at the right time.
Thanks so much for your words in “An Agenda That Will Never Satisfy.” It’s such a great reminder, especially on those days (or even seasons) when we feel we have nothing more to give or that we are running on empty. We need to stop & be still before our Father. I also love the scripture verse in Ephesians 3:20 that says, “Now to Him who is ABLE to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us.”
Thanks again for your ministry, what a blessing to all women!
I need this.. the cup of never ending fulfillment.. that is my life..in a nut shell, and I am just waking up from this. I am seeing how much I am missing out because I keep chasing that fulfillment from the wrong sources. Thank you for this message
Thanks Lysa
I do feel the same too.
Pouring out so much to Papa God and still feel sad.
Thank God, the helper, Holy Spirit, reminded me that because my cup is empty!
I need HIM to fill up with HIS grace and Love.
The only way is to read HIS word and praise HIM and Worship HIM.
Hope your cup run-over with HIS GRACE.
YOU ARE HIS BELOVED AND HE LOVES YOU VERY MUCH.
I am a newer mother, and I have my daily time with the Lord during the nap time routine. I actually read the Bible out loud so my child hears it as well. Doing this has been a huge encouragement during this season of life! Thank you for the excellent post!
It’s evening right now, and I’m tired. I’ve read, and re-read your posting ‘An Agenda that will never satisfy’. I’m so glad I stayed up, your words came up threw my computer and touched my spirit. I feel so truly joyful! Like I am not alone. My heart is beating so hard, I just wanted you to know how happy I am that I have His spirit living inside me, and how much he loves me! Thank you!