Monday, Apr 5
The gift of disappointment
Several months ago Ashley was flitting around the house singing everything “Annie.” Our home was filled with songs, dances, scripts and the proud announcement she was trying out for the school musical.
The day the cast list was posted the singing and dancing and rehearsing of the lines stopped.
She hadn’t gotten a part in the play.
There was a smile and a quick, “Who cares,” that hid a thousand tears daring to flood the scene if she said much more.
But a few days later, the director did request that Ashley and one of her parents attend the all cast meeting where Ashley was told she’d been given the job of student director. That sounded exciting until the director explained that job basically meant Ashley would be a behind the scenes errand runner for her and the cast.
There would be no shining moment.
There would be no spot light
There would be no audience applause for her performance.
Just hours and hours of behind the scenes work.
As a parent, I could see the character building potential. I have done my fair share of behind the scenes stuff in life and it helped shape me for the better. I get that. But to a middle school heart who loves to sing and dance, it was hard.
We went home that night and Ashley toyed with the idea of dropping out. And I let her toy with this idea. But by the next morning, Ashley surprised me by deciding she would embrace this role of serving.
And embrace it she has! It turns out Ashley has quite the knack for choreography, set design and a keen sense of how to make scenes flow more smoothly. The director quickly found Ashley to be quite capable and turned over many responsibilities to this little sprite of a girl.
What once seemed like a huge disappointment became a gift of revelation. Ashley was born to be a leader. Put her in the right environment to lead and she’ll thrive.
I asked Ashley the other day what she thought of this whole experience. She beamed and said, “I wouldn’t want to be doing anything else than the role I’ve been given Mom. I love being the student director. I love it so much.”
Later this month, the curtain will fall to the thunderous applause of proud parents cheering for their child’s performance. And though I won’t see my little brown eyed beauty, I know she’ll be bossing somebody backstage and I’ll be clapping like crazy while letting out a few hoots that will embarrass the fool out of my other kids.
And when the mama sitting next to me leans over and says which one is yours? I’ll reply back, “the one who is right where she should be.”
“Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men,” (Colossians 3:23).
What disappointment are you processing today? How might this be a gift in the making? What assignment might God have right in front of you that He wants you to fully embrace today?

















April 8th, 2010 at 2:01 am
Tears in my eyes. At almost 40, I have yet to embrace this. Wow.
April 7th, 2010 at 10:40 am
Hi Lysa. I'm a little behind on my blog reading, but that's okay because God knew I needed to read this today. Not yesterday, not Monday when you posted it, but TODAY, because today I am dealing with the disappointment of God telling me "not yet" to something I really wanted. It's not even that I think He is saying "no," merely "not yet." Still, I am feeling it keenly, and I needed to read this today to remind me that all His plans are good and He knows best. Thanks, Lysa!
Love and Blessings,
Dawn
April 6th, 2010 at 6:41 pm
Well I guess I had better be honest! I read this yesterday and had a tiny freak out moment. I have been waiting for Christ for the Nations to call me to let me know if I had been accepted or needed to wait a little longer. I read this and began to wonder if I was being set up. God and I had a good chat for a few minutes and I calmed down because I knew that just because I read about disappointment doesn't not mean it is headed my way.
Turns out it wasn't at all. I got my call today after work, and I have been accepted! Praise the Lord. He is faithful!
April 6th, 2010 at 4:24 pm
To Heather in Dublin –
I don't know if you'll get this comment, but I just felt prompted to respond. While I don't know the pain of waiting for a child, I know the pain of losing children through miscarriage and newborn death. I run a ministry (Mommies with Hope) that supports women through such experiences, including infertility. I wrote a post on our blog about this several months back and pray you will be encouraged by it. The link is here…
http://mommieswithhope.blogspot.com/2009/07/waiting.html
Praying for you as you rest in the "wait".
Many Blessings,
Teske
April 6th, 2010 at 8:44 am
Faithful to trust God, work hard, and wait on Him – that's what Ashley did. I love that she accepted the "no glory" role and then found God's pleasure in the midst.
April 6th, 2010 at 4:51 am
Oh Lysa!
Your blog is a difficult pill for me swallow today. I've been coping with disappointment for several years now as my husband and I try for a baby.
At first, I dealt with sickness and doctors. Then I dealt with bitterness and despair. Next it was rejection as family and friends began to chip in their 2 cents as to why we hadn't gotten pregnant. Very few people are willing to listen and be there for us. It's much easier to pass judgment. Only true friends share the sorrows as well as the joys in life.
Thankfully the Lord has been with me through it all and has shown me (slowly) that bitterness separates me from him. It's not the person I want to be.
It still hurts! I still get disappointed, but I'm trusting in God for everything! Nothing is impossible for God! Blessed be the name of the Lord.
Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a desire realized is a tree of life. Proverbs 13:12
April 6th, 2010 at 12:02 am
Lysa –
This post takes me back to chapter 7 in your Becoming More book where you shared your major fit in Sears because your daddy was taking you shopping with the charge card as opposed to cash. THAT story I could relate to today because my daughter and I BOTH had a meltdown. We so desperately want to talk and share…after four boys I was finally blessed with the girl I always wanted and she wants to communicate with the "mom" everyone gravitates toward. She's 12, still loves and adores her mama, and I DO NOT WANT TO BLOW IT!!! So I keep claiming Deuteronomy 30:19 and praising Him for her beauty, good manners, love, health, and kindness that He instilled in her! The disappointment I'm processing is my own…SHE is a BLESSING!!!!
April 5th, 2010 at 11:06 pm
Hi Lysa~ What a great way to view those "disappointments" God allows to come into our lives. And what a wonderful lesson your sweet daughter is experiencing.
I've seen your name around the blogosphere, but this is my first visit to your blog. I'm already blessed, and look forward to reading more.
May the Lord bless you and keep you…
Jennifer Walker
April 5th, 2010 at 10:02 pm
Ashley is an amazing young woman. I can just imagine how God is going to use her in the future.